There is always HOPE!

There is always hope!!

I will be seeing my new dietician today. She is new and this will be the first time I see a dietician since my discharge from rehab. I hope she has the same insight and understanding as the dietician who started the fight with me. I hate change!! Anyway, I’m trusting that she will be able to continue the fight against the voice of a/b going forward.

The voice of a/b has been quiet since last night. I don’t know if it is waiting to see what is going to happen at the new Dietician or if it’s just waiting for my next slip-up. Who knows? I am just enjoying the break from its constant rhetoric for now.

The heading for today’s journal entry is, “There is always hope”, and I just want to let anyone reading this blog know that we will be victorious. I have got to believe this and so do you!

-I can hear a/b laughing in the back ground.

It’s not over and the fight will not be easy but I remember the victories I had in the past, and this gives me hope that I can and will beat this enemy I call a/b.

If you are not journaling, I would like to encourage you to start immediately. Keep it honest and simple. It is for your eyes only and no one has to review it. This process is helping me to externalize the voice of a/b and to separate it from myself. You see, a/b’s strategy is to make you believe that it is you and you are it. It wants you to believe that you are anorexia/bulimia, but the truth is that it is a/b, NOT YOU or me.

I will keep fighting until a/b is eradicated from my life forever!!

There is always hope! Don’t give up…………I will not!