Friday, 14 September 2012

The Demon Anorexia/Bulimia Exposed


The demon Anorexia/Bulimia exposed

People don’t really get what I mean by the voice of AB. AB isn’t a figment of my imagination or an excuse to justify my behaviour. The voice of Anorexia/Bulimia is a very real entity. A demonic force determined to stay hidden. Determined to isolate and ultimately destroy its victims.
It’s incredible how the so called “experts” like to treat people suffering with an eating disorder as the eating disorder itself. Why can’t they recognize the presence of an external influence? They play directly into AB’s hands by making the victim the one to blame for their condition. This only pushes the suffer further away and causes the further internalization of their relationship with AB. AB uses the therapists approach as “proof” that the victim is in fact a failure and then reaffirms its plan to help “fix” the sufferer. AB wins every time a therapist refuses to recognize its voice, presence and influence.
Following is a letter from this Demonic Spirit Called Anorexia/Bulimia. 

Letter From Ana

Allow me to introduce myself. My name, or as I am called by so called "doctors", is Anorexia. Anorexia Nervosa is my full name, but you may call me Anna. Hopefully we can become great partners. In the coming time, I will invest a lot of time in you, and I expect the same from you.

In the past you have heard all of your teachers and parents talk about you. You are "so mature", "intelligent", "14 going on 45", and you possess "so much potential". Where has that gotten you, may I ask? Absolutely nowhere! You are not perfect, you do not try hard enough, further more you waste your time on thinking and talking with friends and drawing! Such acts of indulgence shall not be allowed in the future.

Your friends do not understand you. They are not truthful. In the past, when the insecurity has quietly gnawed away at your mind, and you asked them, "Do I look...fat?" and they answered "Oh no, of course not" you knew they were lying! Only I tell you the truth. Your parents, let's not even go there! You know that they love you, and care for you, but part of that is just that they are your parents and are obligated to do so. I shall tell you a secret now: deep down inside themselves, they are disappointed with you. Their daughter, the one with so much potential, has turned into a fat, lazy, and undeserving girl.

But I am about to change all that.

I expect a lot from you. You are not allowed to eat much. It will start slowly: decreasing of fat intake, reading the nutrition labels, cutting out junk food, fried food, etc. For a while, the exercise will be simple: some running, perhaps some crunches and some sit-ups. Nothing too serious. Perhaps drop a few pounds, take a little off of that fat tub of a stomach. But it won't be long before I tell you that it isn't good enough.

I will expect you to drop your calorie intake and up your exercise. I will push you to the limit. You must take it because you cannot defy me! I am beginning to imbed myself into you. Pretty soon, I am with you always. I am there when you wake up in the morning and run to the scale. The numbers become both friend and enemy, and the frenzied thoughts pray for them to be lower than yesterday, last night, etc. You look into the mirror with dismay. You prod and poke at the fat that is there, and smile when you come across bone. I am there when you figure out the plan for the day: 400 calories, 2 hours exercise. I am the one figuring this out, because by now my thoughts and your thoughts are blurring together as one.

I follow you throughout the day. In school, when your mind wanders I give you something to think about. Recount your calories for the day. It's too much. I fill your mind with thoughts of food, weight, calories, and things that are safe to think about. Because now, I am already inside of you. I am in your head, your heart, and your soul. The hunger pains you pretend not to feel is me, inside of you.

Pretty soon I am telling you not only what to do with food, but what to do ALL of the time. Smile and nod. Present yourself well. Suck in that fat stomach, dammit! God, you are such a fat cow!!! When mealtimes come around I tell you what to do. I make a plate of lettuce seem like a feast fit for a king. Push the food around. Make it look like you've eaten something. No piece of anything... if you eat, all the control will be broken...do you WANT that?? To revert back to the fat COW you once were?? I force you to stare at magazine models. Those perfect skinned, white teethed, waifish models of perfection staring out at you from those glossy pages. I make you realize that you could never be them. You will always be fat and never will you be as beautiful as they are. When you look in the mirror, I will distort the image. I will show you obesity and hideousness. I will show you a sumo wrestler where in reality there is a starving child. But you must know this, because if you knew the truth, you might start to eat again and our relationship would come crashing down.

Sometimes you will rebel. Hopefully not often though. You will recognize the small rebellious fiber left in your body and will venture down to the dark kitchen. The cupboard door will open slowly open, creaking softly. Your eyes will move over the food cupboard door will slowly open, creaking softly. Your eyes will move over the food that I have kept at a safe distance from you. You will find your hands reaching out lethargically, like a nightmare, through the darkness to the box of crackers. You shove them in, mechanically, not really tasting but simply relishing in the fact that you are going against me. You reach for another box, then another, then another. Your stomach will become bloated and grotesque, but you will not stop yet. And all the time I am screaming at you to stop, you fat cow, you really have no self-control, you are going to get fat.

When it is over, you will cling to me again, ask me for advice because you really do not want to get fat. You broke a cardinal rule and ate, and now you want me back. I'll force you into the bathroom, onto your knees, staring into the void of the toilet bowl. Your fingers will be inserted into your throat, and, not without a great deal of pain, your food binge will come up. Over and over this is to be repeated, until you spit up blood and water and you know it is all gone. When you stand up, you will feel dizzy. Don't pass out. Stand up right now. You fat cow you deserve to be in pain!

Maybe the choice of getting rid of the guilt is different. Maybe I chose to make you take laxatives, where you sit on the toilet until the wee hours of the morning, feeling your insides cringe. Or perhaps I just make you hurt yourself, bang your head into the wall until you receive a throbbing headache. Cutting is also effective. I want you to see your blood, to see it fall down your arm, and in that split second you will realize you deserve whatever pain I give you. You are depressed, obsessed, in pain, hurting, reaching out but no one will listen! Who cares?! You are deserving; you brought this upon yourself.

Oh, is this harsh? Do you not want this to happen to you? Am I unfair? I do do things that will help you. I make it possible for you to stop thinking of emotions that cause you stress. Thoughts of anger, sadness, desperation, and loneliness can cease because I take them away and fill your head with the methodic calorie counting. I take away your struggle to fit in with kids your age, the struggle of trying to please everyone as well. Because now, I am your only friend, and I am the only one you need to please.

I have a weak spot. But we must not tell anyone. If you decide to fight back, to reach out to someone and tell them about how I make you live, all hell will break lose. No one must find out, no one can crack this shell that I have covered you with. I have created you, this thin, perfect, achieving child. You are mine and mine alone. Without me, you are nothing. So do not fight back. When others comment, ignore them. Take it into stride, forget about them, forget about everyone that tries to take me away. I am your greatest asset, and I intend to keep it that way.

Sincerely, Anna

Can anyone relate? Does anyone recognise the voice of AB in their own struggle? I have read comments from victims from different backgrounds, nationalities ages etc. saying the exact same thing. Why is it that everyone hears the same rhetoric?

I’ll leave you to decide…………………………….

19 comments:

  1. I had a dream a few years ago about anorexia. In the dream it was demons causing this. They somehow manipulate the persons' vision, literally, to make them see themselves as bigger than the reality. The victim really does see themself with more weight. That was the dream. Visit... aliensrevealed.blogpot.com

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  2. Btw im a female using my bf account writing this I literally cried when I read this cause that was me in my tee years starving myself too the point my inside voice liked it I couldn't even sleep in my soft bed without my bones hurting me n at the time didn't care but in a sick way liked it ! Once crying out too Jesus too help me n asked him for deliverance strange unexplained events was happening in my room.

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    1. Me too. it took me begging God and ironically fasting and He healed me in His Mighty Glory. The demon still tries to come back to me in dreams, but I call on the name of the Lord every single time.

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    2. It's an everyday thing. One day at a time. God gives us his protection but the demons keep trying to come back. His mercy is new everyday. Seek God every morning and watch the Power!
      We need to help each other and all the other people who are filled with this filthy demon.

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  3. Jesus Christ is Lord! That is the only reply you need for these evil demons! Cover yourself with the blood of Christ and watch as that 'all so powerful' demon diminishes and crawls back to the depths wounded by the sheer mention of the Lord of Lords!

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    1. Please pray for my DIL Hollie. This demon is killing her. She looks horrible. She is malnourished. When I try to help her, she pushes me away.

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    2. Please pray for my DIL Hollie. This demon is killing her. She looks horrible. She is malnourished. When I try to help her, she pushes me away.

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  4. anorexia is indeed a separate entity to the victim and it is a demonic entity - mental health professionals dismiss this because it is secular

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    1. Completely true. The ones that get angry at us telling them this....is because it's the demon inside them getting angry.

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  6. http://www.theoi.com/Daimon/Limos.html

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  7. I don't think anorexia is from satan because 3 nights in a row I had a dream of anorexic women looking at me and smiling with joyful smiles....then tge 3rd dream I've had was I too was verry thin but healthy and I was smiling back at them to with a large smile....it's okay if I eat different than everyone else.....I'm not ashamed of being different....and also I dont have to eat as much as others....see this is how Christians operate they think Normal=Godly
    Abnormal = Satan's work...so everyone do as you please. ..mand I can care less who is offended. ..I am my own person not a slave unto reliogon....

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  8. i fought this for over 25 years. i am 100% it is a demon

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  9. It's not religion. Just keep on doing your own thing. You are not the person I am talking to. When you get desperate you will seek God.

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  10. Remember....we are ALL Spirits inside human bodies. We are on an "earthly" journey.
    There are demons on this earth. One third of the angels were kicked out of heaven following the filthy devil. He wanted to "be like the most High". Those very same demonic angels had Sex with the Human women on this earth. This created a force to be reconned with. These very same evil spirits walk on the earth today. They find their way into human beings because of ways we allow them to enter....drugs...sex...addictions. They are stank , filthy entities that try to kill and destroy us. They give people mental problems...sex addictions...on and on. It's true....it's deep...and it's extremely dangerous.

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  11. I have never been anorexic, but I was bulimic. I came upon this blog because I have been trying to discover who the demons are behind this dreadful disease. I want to help people get free, but I feel I need more knowledge. Demons are not behind everything, sometimes it is just us, but demons are definitely behind this.

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  12. I have had bullimia,eating disorder,i went for Christian healing ministry yesterday.the couple prayed about the eating disorder something hurt in my stomach, then something came out my mouth,and an actual demon came out! Never has anything like this ever happened to me before.i was so shocked.The demon was trying to kill me thru bullimia,but Jesus saved me and i praise him.i will keep my eyes on God, Praise Jesus.

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