I know that some of you were left confused in the way my last post ended so many years ago. It was an especially dark and difficult time and I didn’t want to give AB a voice on this blog, plus I was too weak to shut him up.
My subsequent silence may have caused some of you to lose
hope, and for this, I am truly sorry.
Oh, how dark and lonely the valley where AB dwells is. There
is no light, no hope, and no joy in that place.
If you are there today, do not give up. His valley is filled
will lies, deceptions, clever arguments, constant noise, constant bullying,
constant hatred, loneliness, and pain. It is NOT your home! You need to fight to
get out of AB’s grip.
Today I can happily report to all of you that Freedom is something
worth fighting for!
The voice of Anorexia/Bulimia is silent and has been silent
for some years now. AB is gone…defeated. I am free! The funny thing is that I
am even struggling to remember everything. It's clear that AB is something that
can leave its victim so permanently and so completely that one’s personality
and identity can breathe again. It’s also very hard for me to recall AB’s lies
now.
I am happy, healthy, and whole today. I enjoy being with my
family and loved ones. I love life and the challenges it brings.
The secret to my freedom can be found in learning and believing
the truth that Jesus speaks about you. Try to find Jesus’s truth for every
statement AB makes, even if you think it's true, even if AB produces factual
proof to back up his statement. He is a cunning liar. But still a LIAR.
It is only in catching AB out on the lie, that takes his
strength away. AB needs you to believe him in order to remain rapped around
you. That is his only strength. You have to search and fight against AB’s lies.
He can not allow you to know the truth…ever.
Let me tell you what the truth is as someone who when
through this struggle as you are now.
You are so awesome, beautiful, and special. You are loved. You
are talented. You are created in the image of God. You have so much potential
and hope, and you most certainly have an amazing future to look forward to. “Thin”
is not the answer. Being thin is not the answer to happiness and acceptance.
Now let me tell you what AB is.
The demon AB (Anorexia/Bulimia) is nothing without you. It’s
weak and jealous of you. It has no strength apart from what you give him when
you believe his lies.
It longs to be you. It hates itself. It hates its own thinness
and needs to transfer its unhappiness to you. AB is a sad, pathetic demon so very
desperate to be like you. It will say and do anything to be your “friend” just
to control, bully, belittle and destroy you. This is AB. This is the truth
about your enemy. Our enemy.
Never stop fighting. You are so much more powerful in Jesus.
You are loved!
